Some way on another day, I will find a way....

I'm going to see a new medical doctor today.

I know that on the outside it looks like I'm doing great, and in a lot of ways I am.

Maintaining a positive attitude through the last 5 years has been my saving grace.

But...

Even positive people get tired Even positive people cry Even positive people have anxiety Even positive people feel lost

Today in this moment I feel this song to my core.. https://youtu.be/36tggrpRoTI?si=k0mNL2KPY70qBjwG

Going to so many different doctors trying so many different therapies I honestly feel like I'm a puzzle no one can put together.

But that's just today in this moment in time,

Today, I will allow myself to rest, Today, I will allow myself to release, Today, I will allow myself to be still, Today, I will allow myself to wander,

because I know this is just a moment in time and some way on another day, I will find a way....